My Testimony : A Vision Of Understanding
In 1996, I went to a couples retreat in Lancaster, Pa. Rev. Mike Benson was the speaker.
This was an amazing service with the Holy Spirit leading it. The service had a lot about death and many people
testified about the Oklahoma City bombing. When Mike started speaking something amazing happened to me. I heard everything
Mike said twice, Everything he said ran through my mind just before he actually said it. I don’t remember what was said
but I remember what happened to me. A memory of my brother , Shawn came to mind.
Let me go back, Shawn was born in August of 1974, and was premature. He was sick most of the time and spent
most of his life in the hospitals. On Nov. 21, 1974 , Shawn died of crib death. I was 14 and couldn’t understand how
God could take him from us, I was the oldest child and was to go first. The night before he died he was very playful, but
through the night I heard him crying and said to myself “I wish he would shut up” . That was the last cry I heard
from him. From that time on I always tried to watch what I said because I blamed myself for his death for saying that. I couldn’t
understand how people could eat after his funeral and that upset me.
Now back to the service, This is when I had a vision of Jesus holding a baby boy “Shawn” , I couldn’t
see Jesus’ face, I saw the glowing light with Shawn in his arms.
A second later, I saw Jesus the same way holding the hand of a young man “Shawn”as
he would be today.
God made me understand that I had years of guilt because somehow I blamed Him for Shawn’s death. He
made me understand that He took Shawn home because he would live a life of illness on earth and left me here to witness to
my family, since I was the only one in the immediate family to be a Christian. My Wife was sick that night . She still stayed
for the service and stayed up with me into the wee hours of the morning listening to me cry and tell her of my experience.
I hope this testimony touches your heart and may God bless you!!!
Brother Tom
